Saturday, October 21, 2006

OK to be angry!

Well, my lovelies! After last month's ramblings, I think you need something a little lighter from me and to know that I am healing from the inside!

One thing that has helped me is my admitting out loud that 'it's not fair, meaning my MS! I have never said this before about anything because I know and accept that life isn't always fair. My mum taught me to try and be content with how I was and not how I would like to be! However, I have an inferiority complex - always striving for perfection. So mum didn't quite get the message through to me, did she?!! It's OK to be wrong! It's OK to be angry! It's OK to cry! It's OK to be less than perfect!

Recently, I bought a book called 'You can heal your life', and this is a little sample of what is in it. "In the infinity of life where I am, all is perfect, whole and complete. I am always Divinely protected and guided. It is safe for me to look within myself. It is safe for me to look into the past. It is safe for me to enlarge my viewpoint of life. I am far more than my personality - past, present or future. I now choose to rise above my personality problems to recognise the magnificence of my being. I am totally willing to learn to love myself. All is well in my world." The book is not about God but about changing the way you think and so improving the quality of your life.

One sad thing that has caught up with Arf is that he is now officially diabetic. He has been borderline for a few years but his last test showed he had crossed over the normal blood glucose limit. He has to be strict with his diet and be tested again in three months! He is a tad scared but is determined to try and keep from taking tablets. He already takes tablets for high cholesterol but his blood pressure is fine! Neither of us can say the same thing about his brain!!! I decided to buy some designer frames for my glasses using the internet (cheap!!!) and asked Arf to read out my prescription for each eye. He found what he thought were the readings and I typed them in on the questionnaire so my lenses would be correct for each eye. Well!!! It only turned out he was reading the figures from our electricity bill!!! [Jooly laughs out loud!] AND! They seemed to fit in all the right boxes too! I don't know who is more bonkers - me or Arf!!! YES! Definitely Arf!

You'll be pleased to know that my wet room is now in use and I love it! I have a little lobby as well so making our very small bungalow - just a small bungalow! I've even brought my exercise bike into it! Haven't tried it yet 'cos Arf will have to tie me on securely first! I'll let yer know how I get on! Meanwhile - you all take good care of yourselves!

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